loves

2011-02-08T20:54:00.008+08:00

Warning: this post may hurt your eyes.

How have your Chinese New Year been? (:
Well, i was super super busy during the week. visits to go and such and not forgeting gambling, all times favourite for my family's gathering activities. Oh! I've highlighted my hair back to red again!

CNY Eve; 除夕夜：
Went Uncle House for reunion dinner this year.
Was too busy eating, didn't really take photos.

Thats a lil tiger,Janson (my cousin's son) with mum and dad!
yeah, dad tempted him with his tiger beer and he's so tempted to drink he when my dad gave him smell. Hahas! And dad keep act like he's going to give him drink and tempt him. so bad.

Lo hei! very nice right? Looks like a fish! one of my cousin's fiance did the food and this!
Then, the elder started gambling, and the gambling went on.

Day 1; 初一 :
My dad's Chinese Birthday, every year we would eat mee sua. but im not a fan of it so i merely had a mouth of it, then headed out to collect my Ang Pows! ♥
Oh yeah! i drove the car, well, for a short distance. Hahas!

Till night, had dinner at my grandma house, then headed to my great grandma house to have another round of dinner. I miss my great grandma dearly. ):
But now the place is so active compared to the pass due to the lovely kids in the house.
I'll show you one super super super super cute and adorable one! Cayden!
He's damn uber cute i swear! so cute that i can't stop taking photos of his actions♥

A clearer pic of him, i stole this pic from his mum's photo album to show you guys!
looks like korean kid right?♥

Then, came
Day 2; 初二：
(You have been warned about your eyes)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

woke up, prepared and proceed to continue.
My Chinese New Year this year was not as busy compared to the past few years due to some reasons. Visits were also hugely reduced.
Had reunion dinner No.3 at My aunt's place at bishan.
Skype-d with my cousin whose stuck in school at UK after dinner with my relatives.
It must felt bad to know its Chinese New Year and that it is when reunion comes in and the lively atmosphere everywhere at where we called it home and that you are stuck outside and could only see photos, tele-conv thru webcams and such and eating food that are not so familiar to you when you are supposed to have the usual CNY food. Oh well.
Had a full dinner and headed Home.

Day 3; 初三：
Relatives from my mum's side came over to have reunion dinner at my place. My No.4 Reunion dinner already.
Mummy and daddy was so busy from Morning till Night!

Daddy checking on the soup.
(Spot my Black Dog, Princess)

Daddy adding Vege!

On the other side of my living room, some of my relatives came early.

yeah! 3 pots of steamboat for my relatives from my mum side.
If it was from my dad's side, we would use 4 -5 instead!
(:
I Love Chinese New Year!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I have 2 tests tomorrow and i think im only 25% through the revision for both. ):
wish me luck!

2011-01-30T03:02:00.013+08:00

Updates for the past few days,
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It was sch sch sch.
had a event with canon and 91.3fm yst at movida, st james.
It was the Must Drink Friday..

I kind of feel the entrance tag color matches our uniform, don't it?

Not forgetting to develop our own photo on the stop with the canon photo printer.
We used it to develop photos taken for those people invited to the event. (Y)

Its pretty nice!

then, this afternoon,
to my cousin's son JANSON's 1 Year Old Birthday (:
yeah, its all about barney.
Barney balloons, Barney Goodie bags for all. And yeah, they rented a costume and got someone to wore it for the day.
You remember how we love barney when we were young? the purple dinosaurrrrr.
I love you, you love me, we are happy family, and a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.
won't you say you loveeee meeee tooooo....

Dad (trying to be funny), Janson, Mummy
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and home sweet home,
had some soup, packed some corner of my room, online-d, then met baby at 12 for dinner+supper as it was raining very heavy thus, we met late ):
just came home, bathed and on my bed typing this entry. (:

Goodnight people!

2011-01-25T21:11:00.006+08:00

Hi, im back on blog. (:
How was your Chinese New Year Shoppings?
Well, its the time when girls get the excuse to buy and spend more on dresses, heels.
Its 1 week left to the collection of Red Packets, Free Bah Kwa Buffet, and eventually, visits to the clinic. heh.
Im surprised at how time flies.
I can't wait for this semester to end already.
hope i heng heng pass all my modules and then year 3 lo!

oh yes, i bet all of you know that i've gotten my license on the 24th of December. ♥ .
My best Christmas Gift ever!
The Singpost has been delaying my mail,
but i made a call up yesterday and then i found out that it has been in the post office for 1 week plus already. Damn pek chek with Singpost la. didn't even received any notice of registered mail lors. :(
Anyway, i have no classes tomorrow. And B♥ promised to bring me out tomorrow as he has half day to accompany me. hurrayyyyy ♥ first thing in the morning go singpost collect my license! ♥
Can't wait to see my face on it and slap those people who say i couldn't pass with it. (Y)

A Brief on what was i busy on:

Had been working like 一头牛 for the weekends over, meeting demanding customers, settling cases. what could be worst?

New Year Countdown with SweetCuteBundehPigWorm BF (:

Shopping with Mummy for her new year dresses last week

Shall Be Off to Bed At 2 tonight! ♥

2010-11-01T01:08:00.006+08:00

p.s: this is how much i've grown during the past 8 months

my blog has been dead for 8 months.
(:
and here i am, back again.
been so busy recently with the new workload from the company.
no time to even have a nice nap or even a nice rest that lasted for more then 6hrs.
thankfully, i have the sweetest bf <3

thanks for all the KOI bubble tea that you queued in order to give me some sweet sweet love. and also, accompanying no matter how tired you are so i won't feel alone.

2010-02-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

was in yahoo when i saw this,
kept me laughing.

Things to do when u are bored in class:
1.Speak in improper English like ain't, and when the teacher corrects, nod like you understand and continue to speak improperly.
2.
Randomly get out of your seat and sit on the floor.
3.
When it is very quiet, raise your hand and insist it is too loud.
4.
If the person next to you is quiet, turn and inform them that they are distracting you.
5.
When the teacher calls on you to answer the question, answer 'Two '
6.
Randomly raise your hand and say "The answer is three "
7.
Give your teacher a note that uses improper English and misspelled words. Have the note insisting that you are 'the most bestest' in the class and demand to be moved up.
8.
During a test, tell the teachers 'the voices' are making you cheat
9.
Color red dots all over your arm and show the teacher, and tell her/him that you are allergic to School.
10.
Talk about the road kill squirrel you saw on your way to school. Say that it is your dinner. Talk in a redneck voice.
11.
Take out sock puppets and play with them, and occasionally have them grab your classmate's hair. When the teacher looks, keep the sock on your hand and point to your classmate and tell the teacher that the classmate is attacking you with puppets
12.
If your teacher walks around the room during the test, cover your test and glare at them suspiciously.
13.
If your teacher walks around the room during a test, raise your hand and tell the teacher that they are cheating off you.
14.
When the teacher calls on you to answer a question, talk in a creepy voice and say 'I'll never tell' and a few questions later raise your hand and ask why you haven't been allowed to answer a question yet.
15.
Ask to go to the bathroom. Stay in your seat, and when asked if you are going, say 'I just did'
16.
Raise your hand and point to a person on the other side of the room. Insist that that person is cheating off you.
17.
Say that someone across the room is using their telepathic (mind-reading) abilities to cheat off of you.
18.
Ask to go to the bathroom. Get up and walk into the wall. Furrow your brow, glare at the wall and walk into it again. Smile sheepishly and then walk out the door.
19.
When coming back from bathroom, walk through the door. Then ask how you got there.
20.
Raise your hand and ask if you can be excused to skip class.
21.
Meow and bark occasionally.
22.
Hold your head and groan, then tell your teacher that your multiple personalities are fighting.
23.
Walk into class and look around confused. Ask where you are, then say "Oh, this is school I thought this was McDonalds
24.
Read a book, and when class starts, raise your hand and say that they are interrupting your reading
25.
Stumble into class, slur your words and tell your teacher 'I swear to drunk I'm not God '
26.
Bring handcuffs into class and wear a plastic fake police badge. Tell your teacher that he/she is under arrest.
27.
Walk into class with handcuffs on your wrist and say "Sorry for being late, I just broke out of prison." (even if you aren't late)
28.
Meow to answer a question
29.
Raise your hand and introduce everyone to your imaginary friend Bob. Then loudly whisper to Bob saying that you hate this class.
30.
Chew gum in class. If teacher says 'I hope you brought enough for everybody' take out packs of gum and start passing out gum.
31.
Smack gum loudly. When told to throw it out, take out the gum and hold in on your finger. Then insist you don't have any gum, and put it back in your mouth.
32.
Stand up and introduce yourself at the beginning of class (even though everyone knows you). Inform everyone that you have had 'the problem' for three years now. Then act confused and ask if the class is Alcoholics Anonymous.
33.
Shove your heaviest book off your desk. Repeat. Glare at someone else every time the teacher looks.
34.
Cry out randomly that everyone is against you.
35.
Tell your teacher there is a disturbance the Force
36.
Make a cone shape out of paper and glue red tissue paper to the top. Scribble/draw red and orange all over it. Wear it on your head and tell everyone that you're a volcano.
37.
Tell your teacher you don't need to do your homework because you're skipping school tomorrow.
38.
Tell your teacher that you're going to be sick tomorrow.

HAHA.

Loves,
Kailingg`-
i miss my baby boy so much much much

2010-01-25T08:20:00.002+08:00

Im on the train now heading to school,
2 more stops and i'll reach.
so god damn tired.
just finish revamping and painting my room. =D
Redddd and pinkkk!
and new bed!
my wallet getting thinner day by day. LOL
Regarding to the post below,
thank everybody for showing concern (:
I appreciate it alot.
She called me somedays before, but idk why i just don't feel like talking much,
like in the past we would chat all day.
I don't know the person whom i mentioned had seen the post anot,
but if she does,
I still cherish our f/s okay?
if any problem occurs, i'll still be here. <3

-kailingg`-

2010-01-17T23:57:00.002+08:00

How much is Friendship worth?

2 Days ago, i attended a very good friend wedding.

In fact, Knew each other for 8 years.

Been through many obstacles, up and downs together.

Bad times, good times.

I've been sticking side by side with her and giving her support in every obstacles.

In times in need, I try my best to help her to get through everything. (I believe)

But all came to a disappointment.

It was her wedding on the 16th, 2 days before.

I was there as her sister.

Went Malaysia with Baby and then, rushed to her place to meet her on the 15th.

Went to the 24hrs supermarket with her to get her food stuffs to prepare for the morning session the next day.

Paid for all the stuffs.

Did not sleep a wink. chat with her, prepare the arrangement for the morning sessions.

Brainstorm ideas and fulfilling her wishes for the day.

She said she was nervous and cold. I gave her my hand in hope to give her some courage and some warm.

Then, The Groom gave.

I went on with the plans that i planned.

and meeting her most wanted thing she wanted him to do.

Eventually he did it.

So help her with the dress.

Went down to the next location to accompany her to pray to the groom's ancestors.

then headed to her grooms' Grandparents place and then back to her place.

When we were all worn out,

And i sat on her floor feeling very restless after all the long run.

In the middle of some talks with the groom and his brothers,

she said to me '你不要我不用紧，我现在有我的老公了吗!'.

At the very moment, i was so stunned at what she said.

I thought i had heard wrongly. But i did not speak a word back.

I believed she said those words in a moment of reckless as i believe she was tired also.

She said she had ordered the flowers from the shop near my house for the chest brooch.

So she wanted me to collect them on her behalf so i agreed to it.

Have I been a Good Friend?

So i rushed back to my place to collect her flowers in the rain and back home to shower and jennifer came to my house to pick one of my dresses for the night.

Den she called.

in a very harsh tone, she asked me whether i had collected the flowers. And to reach there by 6pm.

So i told her i will rush there.

Cabbed down there, And the fking Cab driver did not know the place. And We were running late.

Called her up, this was the conversation:

她：做么！

我：那个地方在哪里？

她：我跟你讲了吗！

我：我不懂。Cab Uncle don't know.

她：那时我msg你地址了吗！

then she told me near yew tee.

I tolerated everything. At the moment i felt like u-turning back home.

What was with her?

i just wanted to make sure i get there on time and not like searching around for the ave 1.

then reached the place.

She was not there yet. And soon she came.

she shouted at me : Wheres the flower!' (in chinese)

so i told her it was on the table.

Darling jenn went over to talk to her and she said rudely '我现在没有时间和你讲话！'

So we went a side.

Have not i been a good friend enough to do all these for her?

Was really very very disappointed.

After all these things, i didn't expect anything, at least a thank you.

But no... all i received was all these attitudes.

Even when we were leaving, said goodbye to her, she she just said bye very coldly.

What was that supposed to be?

Or to say in a unpleasant way, my 'red packet' too small ar?

At least got 3 digits ok!

I felt like crying totally.

And to think she offered me to be her child's godmother when she/he was born.

But i guess, her hubby and her is enough.

She can cope alone. Needs nobody.

or at least, i guessed.

*name have not been placed to protect the other party's privacy, so dun call to ask me who..'

2010-01-13T22:35:00.003+08:00

Long Day in School.
Was at school at 8am till 3pm.
Slack,bored, Rotted.
So photoboothed!
Pardon for ugly and spastic photos below. =D

hahas.
had presentation for the 'facebook lesson'.
While waiting for Rhoda (my partner) to arrive, might as well camwhore a lil since i had not since long time ago.
...
and yes, i enjoying webcam with classmates during class, sitting side by side.
LOL!
shall post more photos another day!

-kailingg`-

2010-01-02T18:26:00.001+08:00

Here's a interesting story (:

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，

也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，

在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，

让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

　　
于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

　　
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，

因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，

她会很骄傲，

她会很冷淡，

她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?

　　
请你张开你的耳朵，

也请你打开你的心，

去听她心里真正的呼唤，

而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，

你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，

更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——

无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，

只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

2009-12-22T22:25:00.004+08:00

just met baby for a quick dinner below my house.
finished baking cookies with jennifer <3 and jacqueline. ((:
was so tired after all those stuff.
oh yes, baby and i went pulau ubin for a cycle on monday.
yea. 5 hours+cycle.
and im tanned....
work tomorrow! waiting for my turn to bath and off to bed!

2009-12-16T19:14:00.002+08:00

How long have i not been doing my entries?
less then 20 hours and i'm going to take my graphic design test, but study bugs don't seems to attack me. =l
had just finished my mask and woke up from my sleep.
while finding some mask to do, i accidently found out that 99% of my comestics, skincare products, hair products are from shiseido.
that includes my make up bases, foundations, blushers, eye shadows/creator, sunblock, mosturizer, toner, softener, masks, shampoos, facial cleaners, cotton pads, and many etc.
but its a good habit to invest in good skincare products, don't you think so?
nobody would want to get wrinkles by the age or 20+ right?
worst, an outbreak of pimples just before the day you're attending a function, wedding.
and yes, we all do have our lazy times, that includes me.
Sometimes i'll totally forget to tone, mosturize my face before heading off to bed.
It's time we give our face a little care before it gets on strike.
*freaks me out at the thought of that.

p.s: i want to go do my hair treatment soon.
But i want to call baby now!

-kailingg`- <3

2009-08-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

people who have wished me happy birthday to date (in Random),
kenny, kevin, ah chin, ah chin's gf, william, ah qiang, xin min, karen, irene, ah guan, *********, celine, the bartender at suncity, Jennifer, jennifer's bf, Jennifer's Ah ma, Jennifer's Uncle,aunty and cousins, Huimin, huimin's bf, clarence, pohan, kang wei, kangwei's gf, adam, chiho, zhenyi, jiaying, xinyi, andreanna, ying jie, leslie, saravanan, peiling, syaheera, james,jinjie(cousin with the same birthdate),baby, his friends who show up at UP pub, xiangjiu, ivan, ivan's gf, weikeong, wei hong *sorry i cannot rmb the rest of the others names.=P* and also, lester, amaran, ahmad, kelvin Leong(wired), kenny, weepeng, liting, xiao qing, jielong, marcus yeo, dominic, rhoda, melissa ng, chu hong, seetheng, yuni, lydia, ying feng, chun beng, junkai, Ray(shenglong), Polly, Shereen, vera, yong xiang, stephanie, anyi, vincent, weilin, cynthia, ah boon, and many more, sorry if i left out your names. lin lao liang memory damn bad ok... ((:
thank you guys. ((:
and yes, my mummy,daddy, sis, lovely dog and my aunties. ((:

*have not received photos. would post when i receive them ((:

-kailingg`-

2009-08-25T16:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
celebrated at UP (boatquay) yesterday.
shall upload photos most prob tml or the day after including the other celebrations i had and yes, the list of people i need to say thank you.
but, before i end this post, i must say
THANK YOU BABY.
for spending so much and being so sweet with the balloons and such. ((:
celebration with family later!
cya.

-kailingg`-

2009-08-23T16:38:00.003+08:00

had another advanced birthday celebration with friends yesterday.
Thanks those who came despite this peak exam period.
Baby,Huimin,Huimin's Bf, Amy, Kangwei, Kangwei's gf, clarence, pohan,
last but not least, my dear organiser, jennifer wee. ((:
so sweet of her cans.
shall posts the photos after my real birthday ends on 25th together with the other celebrations.
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people who have wished me happy birthday to date (in Random),
kenny, kevin, ah chin, ah chin's gf, william, ah qiang, xin min, karen, irene, ah guan, *********, celine, the bartender at suncity, Jennifer, jennifer's bf, Jennifer's Ah ma, Jennifer's Uncle,aunty and cousins, Huimin, huimin's bf, clarence, pohan, kang wei, kangwei's gf, adam, chiho, zhenyi, jiaying, xinyi, andreanna, ying jie, (to be continued).. ((:
thank you guys. ((:

-kailingg`-

2009-08-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

had my advanced birthday celebration yesterday night with colleagues and huimin at Suncity.
((:
would post more photos and such when im fully awake! =D

-kailingg`-

2009-08-17T12:58:00.001+08:00

I think this marks the end.

-kailing`-

2009-08-17T00:24:00.002+08:00

Is this love ~~mine~~, or not?
Been thinking of this question since 9pm today.
are we really compatible?
both your msgs in reply to my actions really makes me think more.
i just need a reply of 'can you not?', i'll be satisfied.
i understand that even thou you are sick, but still took the effort to go 496 to tabao for me.
i really don't know what should i do now.
you can sleep with no worries hur.
i don't know i don't know.
is that the love i need?

-kailing`-

2009-08-11T13:47:00.006+08:00

TONS OF SUPER OVERDUE PHOTOS!
Firstly, Due to the fact that i was lazy to upload.
Secondly, Due to the fact that blogger had a problem with uploading Photos.
Thirdly, Due to the fact that i solved the problem behind the problem.
here are the photos!
-
Lovely classmates of M0904!

It was jasmine's birthday@ Singapore Flyer.
((:

*p.s: shall post my lovely colleagues on my later posts. ((:
oh well, when im free.

i miss my baby boy

2009-08-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

why can't blogger allow me to post my photos!!!

2009-07-31T11:23:00.001+08:00

I fking dunno whats wrong with everyone.

-kailingg`-

2009-07-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

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I LOVE BABY!

2009-07-20T00:35:00.003+08:00

hadn't been posting for long.
hahas.
had a lil tiff with baby yst.
one, changes for the better
one, changes for the worst.
i'm kinda confused.
well, but i guess we are okay already.
i know baby,
sometimes i am a bit too harsh with my words and i don't give in to any quarrels.
i know, i know.
i know you've been giving in to me all along to the 1 year+.
i know you've changed from your past.
i know you love me.
i know to you, im everything.
i know, you are trying your best to give me everything i want.
i know, i know, i know.
i know i've been very attitude.
i know i've been very self-centered all along.
i know i've been very petty all along.
i know i'm harsh with my words.
i know i love you too.
i know at times, i made you very lost.
i'm lost too.
How i want us to be able to get together fast.
but why isn't things happening the way i want it to be.
why can't he let go.
is it retribution?
why, i don't know.
sometimes not i want throw temper or what.
just that i know you've waited so long for me.
but i never suceeded persuading him.
i feel bad, guilty and sorry.
you know my feeling?
i know you've all along been reading my entries.
well, its meant for you to read, seriously,
sometimes i just don't know how to express my emotions.
so i lost my control, but i didn't meant to. sorry baby if i hurt you at times.
i know i did. many times indeed. but i didn't meant to, in fact, i feel remorse after everytime.
but i just cannot control myself.
too many emotions. all mixed up.
i know i love you.
but im just mad at myself.
why can't i be more strong and say it to him. why can't i be more straightfoward.
i know after my this post, people would start thinking negatively about me.
but i just wanna tell you, i dun care how people look at me.
just like you always say, you rather carry the load yourself.
but do you know, i always cry myself to sleep.
i asked time to stop for me,
but it would not.
i know you love me truly.
but i swear my love for you ain't any lesser.
but for the sacrifices you made for me,
i guess i won't be able to return you.
thus, i will learn to care more for you ((:
loves loves!

-kailingg`-
baby, i love you wholeheartedly. because you bring me my sunshine everyday from morning to night. never fail to give in to me and allowing me to be the most fortunate person i could be. AND I LOVE YOU. <3

2009-06-24T23:38:00.002+08:00

yayness.
added a new baby!
say hello to my new samsung ultratouch 8300. ((:

swee bo? yes. its red red red =D
just gotten it today,
and another new baby,

the LV Neverfull MM.
yes, yes, from baby darling.
my advance birthday present.
sososo happy.
was considering the damier version one but out of stock,
so got the monogram one instead. ((:
i love baby.
thanks baby!
really appreciated it.
althou its 2 mths in advance,
but i know your efforts and thoughts. ((:
love love!
HAPPY HAPPY DAY as i got 2 new babies!

2009-06-18T18:57:00.001+08:00

BACK FROM CLASS CHALET WITH POLYMATES.

shall post more when i wake up. im fking exhausted after 3dand 2n out .

-kailingg`-

2009-06-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

你笑着说
他是朋友但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多
我也这样说这是唯一能
安慰我的理由

2009-06-11T20:40:00.003+08:00

梁静茹 - 我决定

坏习惯维持好几年
每次被你伤了装作没感觉
在一起久了什麼都随便了
心就这样慢慢被忽略

连要回家都看你心情
什麼都是你说了才算
夜凉如水我忽然清醒
体贴还不如一些任性
请让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你决定　
我决定今夜想想自己
我决定偶尔也试著去怀疑
是否你的决定我都只能同意
我不怕这样的结局
至少该怎麼做我自己决定
再如何伤心都最后一次了
天在破晓之后最美丽

同个路口同一片天空
发现我已不会舍不得
在终於释怀的那一刻
找回了久违的快乐
请让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你决定　
我决定不再等待续集
我决定要在天亮之前冷静
让所有情节从此冻结在这里

就让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你决定
我决定不再等待续集
我决定要在天亮之前告别
this was the song that i used to play to listen when im upset about him.
but it is the song i'm playing to listen when im upset about you now.
a thousand disappointment.
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i never had blamed you for not being able to pay for my shopping sprees like they used to.
i never had blamed you for not being able to pamper me like they always do.
i never wanted much from you except for requesting you to kick your bad habits.
i only thought i could have your heart to love me wholeheartedly.
but what i got back was such a huge disappointment.
i'm starting to hate you.
haven i gave in enough? knowing you are tired and trying to cheer u up the whole day.
think about it.
things i said today from taka to bugis.
holding your hands and telling you sweet stuffs.
but you just ignored me.
stop denying, ask yourself,
how much do i matter in your heart now compared to the past.
i don't wanna continue like this anymore.
i'll give you back your whatsoever freedom.
jeslyn was right. for so many pple, why did i ever choose you?
maybe that was a grave mistake.
you have make me utterly disappointed.
you just won't know the pain.
i'm numb.
and i regret trusting you.
i hate you, yes i do.

-kailingg`-

2009-06-09T00:16:00.002+08:00

Super overdue photos.
Night out with Xinmin,ruihau and cliques.
was very unprepared for it thou.
headed to boonlay after sch, then they say tonight go bugis, steamboat session as ruihau's gf birthday.
then oh ok.
then as ruihau as usual, dunno how to buy present, help him buy again for his gf.
this time with xin min ((:
headed to vivo at 9pm to get jiawen's present and got our own individual present for her.
choosed for her a pink guess bag and a guess wallet. ((:
alrights, the matching pair.
let the photos speak.
At Tangs choosing the bags. heh heh

Me & Xinmin ((:

steamboat session at tian tian steamboat.

Back on the cab. damn shag. woke up at 6 by baby to go to sch till around 1am+ in cab. want die already.

tata!
ok. See how much i adore my baby till i ask java to speak for me. =D

then, he went bike washing with his friends.
He dote on his stupid lil love affair of his bike more then me )):
im jealous about it.
And he claims he doesn't. oh well..

oh, did i mention we had a change of uniform! =D
althou its still blue, but definately better then the past one.

BYEBYE!
im off to miss him. )):

kailingg`-

2009-05-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

七情六欲

醉了吧反正清醒更断肠
无理去原谅你被叛
算了吧反正有你更孤独
你不会知道遗忘有多难
给你的心不要你还痛不要你偿
陪你走过一段七情六欲全都品尝
爱你的苦不要你扛泪不要你挡
七情六欲打翻
笑著哭哭著笑去想你的模样
走了吗走到那都一样
你不肯搬出我心上
断了吗断了见面想不断
为何我总是为难我的慌

today boring. because baby's not around. )):
baby, thanks for giving in to me everytime, not matter what i do,
how ridiculous i am, my nonsense and my terrible moodswing.
i love you ok. ((:

-kailingg`-

2009-05-27T10:51:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry for everything.
i'm sorry that i hurted you.
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.
but i still love you alrights ((:
and i know you will. :D
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now in java programming lessons.
i know none about it.
except for
public static void main(String args[]) {
and
System.out.println
haha.
i know it feels dumb.
waiting for friends to finish theirs then i can copy and hand up.
so bored so bored so bored.
facebook, facebook, facebook!

-kailingg`-

2009-05-17T23:32:00.004+08:00

NYP polymates outing on 14th May.
Kbox @ Cineleisure, In the end, left a few people behind only.
shall post up photos later next time ((:

lovely FHSS- 4G'06 Class BBQ
we look damn shag, i know.

lovely people aren't they? ((:
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alrights. i know u know,
i love camwhoring.
so heres it!
((:
taken i think 2 weeks back then. lazy upload lahs. ((:
close the screen if u think your eyes are getting sick.
oh well. haha. ((:

i love kailing ok.
=D.
baby's fast asleep.
a leopard nv changes its spots.
hais.

-kailingg`-

2009-05-14T09:58:00.003+08:00

in school.
cabbed there.
alamak. i promised to save money. but...
anyway, photoshop lessons at the moment!
no more

public static void main(String args[])

zzz...

-kailingg`-

2009-05-11T23:26:00.007+08:00

Photos uploaded as promised!
Baby's 19th Birthday on 7th May!

qin ai de cut his 1st birthday cake. lols. fruit cake with a lighter as candle? heh heh.

i know i look damn shag. till 6+am lehs. eyes also watery.

Nice hors, you all better say so. ((:
blew it on 7th of May ((:

i know kinda lame. did it in class when the lecturer teach us do this, but i type these instead. ((:

2009-05-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

但是我还是非常爱你的！

2009-05-10T00:28:00.001+08:00

我发现到其实我比较喜欢成熟稳重的男人。

-kailingg`-

2009-05-07T22:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYLOVE!
firstly, happy birthday dearest.
i love you ok ((:
i wanna say sorry for my tempers that i throw at the slightest things.
but i know you understand de lahs. heh heh.
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so, celebrated with him from 6th to 7th.
after sch, down to orchard to get him his presents.
got him a fred perry polo,Armani exchange slipper and Armani exchange Tee.
and of cause a card and a personalized cake. (:
see, thats how much i dote on him ok. heh heh =P
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den at night wait for his friends den to Lebar till 2+ when they close,
den change location to whiskey bar where they drank till around 6am when we reached our rest place?
poor baby drank so much.
but alright, as long as hes not drunk, cause if he is, i no strength to bring him back. HAHA.
then rest till around 12+?
had curry chicken then rest awhile more,
shall posts the photos when im free tml alright darlings? ((:

p.s: My New Resolution: to break the habit of skipping school and classes.
hahas. althou it seems impossible to break the habit. oh well..

-kailingg`-

2009-04-28T14:01:00.002+08:00

boring lecture.
):
ending sch at 4pm,
meeting baby love later. <3
dearest have been sending me to and fro from school these few days while hes on MC.
how great.
and yst sch from 9-5?
i went to class at 9, left at 10.15 over to AMK hub to meet baby as he was waiting there for me till my break to go for lunch tgt.
dunwan him wait for long, so went over to find him den off to JP.
ponting classes is my fave hobby.
heh heh.
yaya. im happy im happy happy, as long as it is with baby.
kailing is broke for these few days.

-kailingg`-

2009-04-23T08:30:00.001+08:00

in school.
so boring.
waking up at 5.20am to be able to reach on time.
having digital media and design class at the meantime.
shall blog when im home ya ((:

p.s. i miss baby boy

-kailingg`- ((:

2009-04-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

Starting school tml.
zzz.
did i mention on my orientation day (16th to 17th)?
oh yes.
i cabbed to sch at 8.30, reached around 9,
go in listen them talk,
then go walk around sch, meet the pem,
then eat abit.
then i left at around 3 instead of 5.30,
of cause to meet my dearest at cineleisure.
to get a advance birthday present for him.
got him a fred perry polo for him.
i think he love it. heh heh.
then off to bugis eat steamboat.
yayness. my fave tom yum ok.
kailing like kailing like.
then on 17th did not go, orientations are BORING.
tml sch at 9am,
god bless. i've not woken up so early for so long les.
cabbing down to NYP bahs,
go off at 5, wait for baby come fetch me.
to bencoolen eat tom yum at hot spot cafe!
darling jennifer says 7stars. zzz.
tml go try!
God Bless Me For my first day at school tml!
ok. shall get to sleep after some bible reading.
((:
goodnight people!

-kailingg`-

2009-04-19T00:23:00.001+08:00

Our recent fave addiction.
Mc Chicken munchees!

baby!~

i adore i adore being with you.
love! love!

-kailingg`-

2009-04-15T12:11:00.003+08:00

School's orientation starting tml. )):
Oh well, i think i'll prolly go for 1 day only.
oh yes, i have to collect all the debts outside already.
so people, please be kind enough to return me back by tml as im broke ok.
Total Sum: $320
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i need $$$$$$$$.
heh heh.
baby told me something yesterday.
he saidthat I is either i take cab to school or don't attend sch.
and i think that's prolly what i would do.
=P.
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Oh yes, im running a fever.
God Bless Me!.

Kailingg`- ((:

2009-04-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

just got this new love today!
reserved since so many ages ago,
finally got a call from gucci to say it has arrived!
thanks baby love for going all the way down to get it for me.
just to avoid my disappointment. ((:
it was greatly greatly appreciated.
ILY!
i wanna watch stars with him! =D

-kailingg`-

2009-04-07T16:50:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY LIM!
imagine how 'buay-gum' we were in secondary one, quarrelling over the slightest things.
then became so close in secondary three together with pecky,fishy,jenn,huimin. ((:
its the 7th year we knew each other already,
stay tight alrights.
*celebrated @ billy bombers(JP) with amy, jenn, jean.
surprised her with the cake and such ((:

we just can't get enough of kisses. <3 -----------------------------------------------------------------------
then, yst to bugis for steamboat. then shopping with huimin darling. ((:

did i mention i brought a damn sweet and nice bedsheets and quilt cover for baby love?

i love being asleep in your oversized- polo tees. ((:
i love seeing my photo on your wall.
i love seeing my photo in your wallet.
i love i love i love.
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Lovely baby Cayden.
Xue ping jie jie's beautiful baby boy.
that cute lil' one is 1 mth and is super smart i tell you.
he learns how to do this at you already-> =P
*sticks his tongue at you*
hahas. super adorable.

he loves being bathed ((:

goodbye people!
im off to work as im in office currently!
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2009-04-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

celebrated Amy's Birthday with Alikuku Jennifer, Amy, Jean ((:
shall post photos up tml. I'm Freaking Tired Today.

Tml go sweep grave.
waking up at wee mid morning.
i'm only left with 3 hours of sleep.
how pathetic.

Oh yes, Schooooooool startingggggg sooooon.
)):
orientation on 16&17.
not sure its a camp or what,
anyway, even if it is, im only attending on 16th.
waste my time only. =l
kailing is very the broke lahs.

I MISS BABY! )):
ALTHOU ITS ONLY 1 HR SINCE I LAST SAW HIM.
OH WELL.

-kailingg`-

2009-04-01T13:49:00.000+08:00

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, And a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

2009-03-21T02:42:00.000+08:00

happy 22nd birthday Mr. Kevin Lim.
colleagues/ work partner for 2 years already.
heh heh.
we got him a gucci wallet.
((:
the one he choose.
hope you like it ar.
and got myself a bonia bag. sales leis.
chiong ar.
just came back from taman jurong de ktv.
super tired.
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baby, sometimes i really miss your embrace so much. )):

卓文萱 - 永不消失的彩虹

我看见你的瞳孔看见的那片天空
你指尖尽头架构属於我的梦
那是清澈的星河那是橘色的云朵
遥远的天国建筑这一道彩虹

你把我眼底的寂寞彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身後带我静静遨游

请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以後
请留给我慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵着我的那种温柔
只有你懂我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

我以为天是黑的你忽然放了烟火
我才发现我生命可以很闪烁
你把我眼底的寂寞彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身後带我静静遨游

请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以後
请留给我慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵着我的那种温柔
只有你懂我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

请不要关掉我的镜头
不要熄灭我的以後
还给黑夜永不消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯我的双手
你能感受我的颤抖
只有你懂我会流泪是因为最深处的感动
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i love being in your embrace. telling me how much you love me.
hear you sing lullabies to coax me to sleep, tolerating my nonsense.
i know i'm very 'ti ki' at times, throw a big fuss over the slightest thing that could ever happen, but i'm glad that you still tolerate my nonsense and coax me.
i'm sorry for everything that i've threw a rage upon, i know it'd been hard on you.
i love everything being with you.
-i'm sorry that my surrounding had took us such a long time. i'm trying me v.best, i really do.
((:
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had watch movie with baby 'coming soon'.
nice nice.
but the ghost super ugly las.
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i miss you

-kailingg`-

2009-03-19T12:57:00.001+08:00

kailing had cut her nice nice long long 3.5ft hair yesterday.
it is now 2.8ft.
she is dying.
)):

-kailingg`-

2009-03-05T10:51:00.003+08:00

I'm Back.
had not update this thing for a long time.
lazy you see.
these few days,
engrossed in work, sorry darlings.
sighs.
anyway, would be starting school real soon.
Multimedia and Infocomm Technology @ Nanyang Poly.
the thing is, ITS SUPER FAR CAN.
wonder by then, what would be my mode of transport?
i dunwan take public transport!!!
well, you know kailing.
she is lazy enough to call for cab every morning for a 5mins ride to her workplace.
and now, its Ang Mo Kio, )): )): )): )):
alamak.
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anyway, starting school in sometime around April.
God Bless Me.
oh ya oh ya.
i need to get a big bag for school then,
any intro?
i'm considering LV NEVERFULL GM or LV SELEYA MM.
well, big enough you know.
any other suggestions or brands?
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P.S: Darling Huimin, recover soon, mummy love you! Shopping?
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Baby, i promise you ((:
Loves&Misses.

2009-02-16T01:42:00.001+08:00

DARLING JENNIFER'S BIRTHDAY ON THE 11TH FEB.
celebrated with jenn, audrey, jacqueline and joanna.

from tampines rush to dhoby ghuat got cake den to hong kong cafe @cineleisure

dearest Jenn with cake & fooling arnd with candle. hahas

*photos taken from Audrey's blog.

handling over jenn's present from me.
Your mother me, love you ok.
hahas.
its been 6yrs + dearest.

darling audrey ((:

jacqueline ((:

headed down to ktv at taman jurong for singing sessions. damn ulu.

reached home @ 1am den showered. slept.
hope you enjoyed your day dearest.
mummy love you ok.
no matter what, dun be silly.
we'll always be beside you accompanying you endure thru your half to 1 yr wait.
he'll be out soon. ((:
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next morning. heh heh. i know it looks weird with me tying the hair.
been awful 2 years b4 i tied ok. had been tying from 12th to 13th den 15 onwards to?
hahas. damn nerdish can
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then, 13th, met Mr. Alan Tan at night den till midnight, passed him his present.
heh heh.
be honoured ok botak. :P
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14th, Happy Valentine's day to all.
received roses from *********, Mr. Alan and jn.
heh heh.

i love i like i adore.
played arcade at jp den slacked at his place till arnd 2.30, den cabbed home.
tired tired tired. )):

-kailingg`-

2009-02-12T01:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JENNIFER WEE!
mummy love you ok. ((:
went out to cine with Jennifer, Audrey, joanna and jacqueline.
shall upload photos soon. ((:
den went to taman jurong for karaoke session.
but the sheng le ju no more room.
so went to another ktv nearby i forget what name already. heh heh.
den cabbed home.
here am i blogging, while waiting for my hair to dry.
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Boy, you know how much i miss you?

thanks baby,
i appreciate every single thing you did for me from the start till now.
althou it has been a long wait,
but honestly i'm greatly touched that you put in all the effort wholeheartedly to make me feel so happy and xinfu. ((:
thanks for giving in to me and tolerating me nonsense all the while. yaya. i know im a very hard to please person.
thank you for everything once again.
I Love You okays.

p.s. i love the warmth in your embrace.

-kailingg`-

2009-02-12T01:37:00.010+08:00

2009-02-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

i just got a new love!
:D
On friday,
went jp to help colleague's get their valentines present for their gfs.
then pass by lee hwa, this sparkling thing caught my eye.
lost another 1k again.
brought the pendant and happily go home den meet botak.
but im seriously broke.
)):
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i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss mr alikuku bangala botak tan.
v.days is coming!
*excited*

-kailingg`-

2009-02-06T01:44:00.003+08:00

Thanks Mr. J.N for the song and chit chat session.

黄品冠 - 我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

I'm Sorry that if i made you disappointed.
You'll always be my bro ((:
One who will always be there for me to share my troubles and sorrows with.
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Having supreme bad moodswing these few days. do not irritate me )):
P.s:
Mr.Botak, was utterly disappointed that you gave up so fast.
Maybe if you tried making another call when you send your smses,
things would be different already.
it's near 2am but im still full wake,
and you're fast asleep.
makes me wonder how much i meant to you in the 1st place.
shugs* i really don't know.
it makes me wonder.
i ponder over it so much.
i need my pills badly,
but because i promised,
i stick to it. How about you?
Have you stick to your promises?

-kailingg`-

2009-02-03T23:15:00.005+08:00

Reunion dinner on sat ((:
hahas.
during work, so cute cans.
ah bao go buy fireworks den give me.
but i only want 2 ((:
*what i did to them are as below.

then today, camwhore,camwhore,camwhore. ((:

den so funny. act cute only my colleague.

hahas.

roses, roses, roses.

*ps. i miss him. )):
* i love listening to you sing song to coax me to sleep.
i love listening to you sing twinkle lil star, london bridge. :D
kailing like ok.

-kailingg`-

2009-01-31T00:36:00.006+08:00

HAPPY MOO MOO YEAR!
MAY EVERYBODY PLAY MAHJONG, WIN WIN.
PAY POKER, WIN WIN.
HUAT AR!

I LOVE C.N.Y.
I LOVE RED PACKETS.
I LOVE RED COLOURS.
I LOVE GAMBLING SESSIONS.
I LOVE BONUSES.
I LOVE FOOD GOODIES.
I LOVE LONG OFF DAYS!!!
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28th, bugis then paragon, then taka den fep with huimin darling.
got my gucci make up pouch.

new love!
wanted to get the

in red. but both red and green also out of stock. *discountinued*
tmd. not fun one.
tml, gambling session again at work. =D.
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btw,
you know what i do everytime hes not around but in camp?

tada! im seeing him everyday on photos ((:
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i miss baby boy.

and i miss having him by my side during my shopping sprees. ):

so beloved. ((:

-kailingg`-

2009-01-24T22:50:00.008+08:00

oh well.
at last i move my mouse to get things done.
uploaded photos.
((:
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10/01/2009 cousin's wedding @ One Fullerton Hotel

Have a blissful and loving marriage ((:

did i tell you? someone left this at my doorstep.
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its new year soon. so as usual, packing and cleaning room.
and in the mean time, found some long long ago items:

don't ask me how this flag landed at my hand, i do not know/Remember.
Haha.

5S2 (bottom most left)

BYEBYE!~

once upon a time..

photograph @ Kinmen (taiwan)

primary ?

i dunno why this photo is taken upside down.
if i'm not wrong, drawn by cindy during pri 6.(:

pri 6 music txtbook? -.-|||

by Mr. Clarence Chua
hahas. thanks dude ((:
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tata! ok.
updates for today.
yayness! close shop already.
would resume work on the 29th
today after work, striaght away go to paragon to meet Mr. Botak. ((:
got my gucci bag

but in white lining (:
but the landyard i wanted = sold out )):
then to taka to get my toner and new foundation ((:
den back to jurong point.
i think i spend $1600 within 2 days? zzz.

-kailingg`-

2009-01-13T01:15:00.003+08:00

attended my cousin wedding on saturday.
shall post more the next post. ((:
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yes yes.
My maths results that i retook came today at 2pm. ((:
i passed.
so hurray.
my form A almost all the course can go. =D
so just applied online.
here goes:
1 - N45 BUSINESS STUDIES (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)
2 - S71 BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)
3 - S86 MEDIA AND COMMUNICATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)
4 - S48 HUMAN RESOURCE MANAGEMENT WITH PSYCHOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)
5 - S50 INTEGRATED EVENTS & PROJECT MANAGEMENT (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)
6 - N85 INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)
7 - N79 BUSINESS & SOCIAL ENTERPRISE (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)
8 - N80 INTERNATIONAL SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)
9 - S82 BUSINESS INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)
10 - T45 VETERINARY TECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)
11 - N40 LEISURE & BUSINESS FACILITIES MANAGEMENT (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)
12 - N81 FINANCIAL INFORMATICS (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

lols. completed all most choices within 20mins. reckless choosing?
i hope not. *crosses fingers*
Thanks God and God Bless.

p.s i miss baby who is with all the dogs right now.
thanks for all the support and endurance when i lost my temper and go crazy.
i know i'm hard to please, but i've nv doubt your efforts to do so.
thank you. Loves&Misses!

2009-01-09T00:04:00.008+08:00

some overdue photos.

yayas. spastic i know.
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2nd of January.
trip to malacca shopping with mum&sis.
yaya. MY SUPER NAKED FACE without makeups or photoshops.
LAUGH LAHS LAUGH LAHS.
zzz.

bored on the journey...

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o7o1o9, Half day, so out with Mr. Botak.

baby loves.

wanted to go nails extention and rebonding that day.
but sadly, not enough time, so did nails extention only. )):
spend $306 in that shop. psycho me buy things. )):

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Camwhoring early in the morning.

super cute miniature baby sofa.
((:

stupid boy left me to his lalaland. )):

-kailingg`-

2009-01-06T09:13:00.000+08:00

你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔

我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我沒有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

-kailingg`-

2009-01-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

SAD SAD SAD.
listening to songs,
then, jeryl ask me go listen to a few songs.
thanks dude. ((:

左边:

总是忍不住寂寞掉下
眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心
短暂的晴天
随时都可能
被阴狸收回等待
有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你
所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲
你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动
在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜
伸出右手
想陪着你向前走
感受
你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深
爱你的我
想信你会了解
总在
埋怨过你的冷漠
之后
又急着说抱歉
仿佛
向疏远的你
乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果
有可能最美
也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许
太自由的你
心里面那个家
谁也不能回
我一直相信
总有一天
你会用左手
牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远
却会实现
心在同一边
就能够听见
你说的那句
我爱你
你一定看的见

李宇春 - 一开始就知道

一个人站在去年的那条街
空气有点眷恋
一整夜都守在空空的房间
想伸手抓住有你的感觉
只想问你一直在想着谁
是谁为你流泪
都说了心甘情愿被你欺骗
就别再让我心碎

你说爱就是一瞬间
怎么我的心都搁浅
承诺都不代表永远

从一开始就知道
你也许不能陪着我一直到老
你像刺进回忆的刀
遍体鳞伤
都舍不得画句号
从一开始就知道
感人爱情故事结束的都很早
怎么我都没有想到
原来我不是故事的主角
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moody. moody. moody.
Jeryl, dun ki siao ok.
you think too much les.

-kailingg`-

2009-01-04T01:00:00.002+08:00

hi, im back. ((:
well.
just reached sg yesterday.
when malacca. but boring trip lurs.
nth to shop&buy.
so brought back food for colleagues at work instead. ((:
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today, work work work.
btw, pay arrived on the 1st. so yayness.
and i got a whole carton of new moon birdnest at home FREE.
my everyday's breakfast. yayness.
yes yes. reached home not long ago.
my colleague got hitten by a mad fella while collecting installment debts.
so reported police.
NB. we'll gonna sue that fella till he drop pants lors.
If the police dun put you in jail, i'll make sure my company lawyer will ((:

p.s: boy, where are you?

-kailingg`- ((:

2008-12-30T00:57:00.004+08:00

Day Out On 26th with Mr.Botak to Suntec.

then met huimin darling@ FEP.
We Brought a Kimono top. Wanted to have the same pair, but last piece. sadded. )):
Till the Shop closes, Went to eat Our Ice Cream On Waffles till around 10.40 they off the lights.
Cabbed Home With Hui Min and Mr. Botak ((:

p.s: Baby, I Miss You.

-kailingg`-

2008-12-26T02:02:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
thank God for the flooding smses.
jp play catch catch at arcade while wait for botak and ah heng&gf.
got my giant tiger. :D
den cab to bugis to steamboat.
den to lakeside park and crap.
i'll let the photos talk to you ok?

EEWKS. Botak says it taste great. but all of us thinks its so yucky can. :P
best can. pluck prawn for me. yayness!

my fave, mushroom. i also pluck for him ok. i very good one. :P

baby loves.
misses..

-kailingg`-

2008-12-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

BY DARLING JENNIFER,

LOVELY LOVELY LOVE.
--------------------------------------
Morning, wait up, read my scheldule for the day.
lots of urgent and impt appointment. )):
so bathed, doll up,
den cabbed to below jenn's house to pass her her present and got mine. ((:
and to town straight.
got Mr. Botak's Christmas present.
then, ********* came to pick me up and den to Tampines,
then to Jackspeed for meeting.
then at last finish les,
went back to Tampines for Short Meeting,
then to thai village for shark fin. =D
yaya. my fave.
den to BL,
to meet the MP..
zzz..
So tired now already.
but i still miss Mr. Botak. )):
that sleepyhead. =P

-kailingg`-

2008-12-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

yes yes.
yesterday day out with or to say short break with jennifer.
mummy love you ok.
heh heh.
as promised, treated her a meal, but in the end the person treating seems to be Mr.Botak.
hahas. =P
went to JP2. shopping!! but not enough time nors. she have to go off for work.
that alikuku girl.
had late lunch at thai express. food ok lors. service po-or. )):
photos below. ((:

Went to Watch 'BOLT' with Mr. Botak and then to buy jennifer's Bag from charles and keith.
She Wanted a sandals. but no stock. so brought the bag for her as christmas present.
((:
i still got MANY christmas present to get for my beloved-s.
who want accompany me go get them??!!
hahas.
Meeting Darling Jennifer On next monday again.
Dearest Huimin too ((:
Or Both. =D
Your Lao-niang me the best ok.
HAHA. zz..
was sick for 5 days already. poor me.

ok. i miss Mr. Botak, that sleepy head who ignore me for his lala-land in the afternoon )):
angry hur. heh heh. =P

-kailingg`-

2008-12-15T12:50:00.002+08:00

i'm super duper upset after receiving a call in the morning.
whats the use of helping people so much and after that they turn they heads over and give you a stab?
if you so wanted my position,
just come up to me and tell me that you're confident of handling better den me,
i'll confirm pass to you and leave one.
there's no need to go one big round to do this and that.
karma to you.
so old le still like that
imagine a 45 years old guy vying over a 18 years old girl's position.
if you think
handling the finance, cash stuff, transferring money and checking sums in the morning is easy.
handling e-mails and YOUR customers feedbacks/complaints in the afternoon is easy.
handling YOUR BOSS schedules and appointments with other companys is easy.
and counting YOUR sales report, company sales, checking of invoices and Counting Money is easy.
And of cause, doing what you only have to do, SALES.
then, come up to me and tell me you're confident.
i'll be glad to replace myself with you.
i'm doing everything and plenty of busy things a day while you're doing only sales which i also have to do.
so blardy hell,
fuck off.

p.s: forgive my vulgarities. im really ANGER-Y right now.

-kailingg`-

2008-12-10T23:31:00.007+08:00

Mr. Alan Tan's POP @ tekong ((:
yes yes.
i know the photos are of lousy quality.
too bad lahs. in a rush, placed my camera on the living room table and forgot to take it along.
but luckily, i had my C902 5mp phone ((:
yes yes. i had to zoom in, so blur blur ok.
let the photos do the talking ((:

:DD Lovely Mr Botak.
The Guy Who is always caring for me,
being my listening ears,
accompanying me to my shopping trips without grumbles
and of cause, doting on me ((:
Boy, i know its been a long wait,
i wasted plenty of your time too.
I do not know how long will this wait still take.
but trust me,
You'd always been in my heart.

YAYNESS. ((:. POP lurs.
after which, accompanied him back home den met huimin at JP.
headed to Bugis to had steamboat session.
out fave ok.
poor botak had to travelled along with us even thou he's sick.
you're the best ok. *pat pats*
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Some OLD OLD photos which i've not yet uploaded till now.
hehe. here comes me.

the zi-lianing process.

I'm suffering from every month's you know what currently.
Damn Shag.
So went off early.
idiot ********* wants to finish his work 1st, so went home myself.
why can't you just let me free?
i want to escape.
but, you just can't accept it.
sighs.
oh well.
---------------------------------
i'm sad over mr botak.
yes yes. im that petty one ok.
sometimes i'm just pondering about what you're thinking.
maybe, i'm just not the right path.
)):

-kailingg`-

2008-12-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

i'm sick and tired of everything.
how i hope everything would end like this. -
)):
kailing is uber supreme sad.
everyday, she suffer from insomnia.
needing the help of sleeping pills everynight.
she has lost counts of days..
God Bless Her please.

我的每一天多很难过。
我很不好受，你知道吗？
让我走吧。

and yayness.
botak coming out tml.
i miss him )):
i really do.

-kailingg`-

2008-12-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

))):
things not going right these few days.
everything are going %&%*&$^.
)):
anyway.
steam boat with colleagues yst.
was tired as reached home around 2am.
but did not sleep a wink at all after hearing somethings.
FKING BITCH.
go bang wall and die lahs.
knnbccb.
well well.
byebye.

well, not forgetting, i miss my botak )):

-kailingg`-

2008-11-25T13:28:00.003+08:00

YES YES.
Shopping day out with huimin darling and seow ting ((:
went shirley to do my treatment for hair in the afternoon,
and cab to fetch seow ting after that to go to Corporate Office to get my mum's Vouchers.
then cab down to fetch darling Hui Min from her sch den headed to bugis for steamboat session.
heh heh.
we <3 spicy spicy hot hot.
then cab down to far east for my retail therapy.
overall spending: $300++
FK. why must i spend at least $300 on every off day?
im fking broke.
my total spending this month: $5000++? O.O
i had a shock myself too when tabulating my accounts.
ok. shall let my photos speak for me already. ((:

*Photos above: Kailing, Huimin, Seowting,Kailing ((:
LV LV LV!
okok. i love low hui min okays.

p.s: cheer up jennifer.

I MISS BOTAK LAHS.
that alikuku fella.

-kailingg`-

2008-11-21T11:24:00.005+08:00

okay. now im back.
reached home quite late last night.
yes yes. botaks out of tekong already.
-------------------------------------
yesterday,
pictures speaks a thousand words.
... ... ...
what do you think they were seeing?

those tiko pehs. HAHA.

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ending the day with the everyday routine.

money money money. too bad its not mine. )):
what if i get rob one day?

-kailingg`-

2008-11-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

im still at bl )):
something happened today.
im still kinda sad about it.
)):
-----------------------------------
yaya. i dropped my C902 into the bathtub again like what happened to my previous C902.
same model, different colour, but same ending. FK.
lols.
Mr.Botak gonna be mad about it. :P
not my fault ok.
mood quite down nowadays
sad sad lur.

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原谅我

请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　话哽在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐　或许我爱太多想太多
我能感受　他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手
请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活
请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　话哽在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐　或许我爱太多想太多
我能感受　他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手
请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活
爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱
原谅我　必须假装爱错
别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口
原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛
别无所求　彻底忘了我
爱原来有舍得
我爱过　我才懂

oh well....
-------------------
i miss Mr Botak.
Yayness. would be able to see him tml ((:
MISSING x MISSING + MISSING ((:

-kailingg`-

2008-11-16T23:24:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH GONG!
STAY HEALTHY OK.
HOPE YOU LIKE THE MASSAGER ((:
END WORK EARLY, WENT HOME, PREPARE THEN GO PSA BUILDING,
HABOURFRONT RESTARANT FOR DINNER BUFFET. ((:
TONS OF PHOTOS BELOW. IF I MAKE YOU HURT YOUR EYES,
IM FKING SORRY.
BUT, MIND YOU, YOU CAN CLICK THE RED BUTTON WITH THE
CROSS ON THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER OF THE SCREEN.
THANK YOU.

yayness! i got a photo with them

YAYAS. I'M VAIN.

I MISS BOTAK OK.

-KAILINGG`-

2008-11-15T00:38:00.006+08:00

i'm back from nikki's birthday celebration @ chong pang (turf city).
sad about some stuffs. so here back i am, posting.

*post-dated photos above heh heh
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camwhores camwhores, camwhores.
oh well, forgive me for my untidy hair in the photos today alright?
i know you will ((:

yes yes yes. im fugly. i know. not happy, dun see.

kailing, c.k, kailing, adeline

kailing, adeline

kailing, ah hai, staffs.
again, forgive me for my untidy hair due to lazyness and sleepiness. )):
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Nikki's birthday ((:
steamboat @ chong pang, turf city.
with pecky and their friends.
ate, thanks pecky and nikki for cooking.
heh heh.
while, I, sat and eat. :P
then also, talk talk talk,
den some of their friends slowly came.
den decided to sneak out, buy the balloon to surprise her.
but buy wrongly. wanted to buy ultraman become buy till spiderman. :P
then went giant, buy a cute DAMN CUTE undies
and went back, brought another normal balloon,
wrote something on the undies, den put onto the balloon.
LOL damn cute and funny.
we dun dare take and walk back.
so asked nikki come out and take herself.
so bluff her we lost our way.
so tada!

heh heh.
then, comes the cake.

i know its dark, so cannot see. but they're applying the cream
onto her face lahs.

then talk talk awhile, went home.
gr8 day! ((:
do take care my friends. ((:

p.s. Mr Botak would be attending field camp tml already.
that poor boy. miss him lots ok. )):
I guess he's fast asleep now already. to prepare for tml.
misses. <3>
-kailingg`-

2008-11-12T18:36:00.003+08:00

tada!
my lovely dovey new RED lv wallet. ((:
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in office currently,
talking crap with friends on msn,
stoning.
doing funny and silly actions over the web cam.

BYEBYE!
next time, not happy, dun see lahs.

-kailingg`-

2008-11-12T01:15:00.003+08:00

HURRAY!
cabbed to BBDC in the morning, yes yes yes, i pass my evaluation.
congrats to me,
cab down to huimin house, fetch her, headed to town to get my labels. ((:
went here went there,
then decided on which one should i get.
so went paragon, got the Raulph Lauren Polo for *********'s birthday.
its his birthday tml. but he'll be out of the country.
like always.
then to Louis Vuitton,
got my speedy and zippy wallet.
then to gucci, to get my key holder.
wanted to get the key holder from Lv but sold out. so sad.
also in the first place wanted the wallet from gucci, but no stock.
why like that.
but nvm,
i got the stuffs i had to get in the end.
total expenditure of the day? $3K.
Oh Shit.
i spend a bit wee way too much this few days.
then ********* came to fetch me from takashimaya while huimin went home.
I love Low Hui Min :*
then had a lil meeting,
then went makan nice nice food,
then headed home.
met xiao ting below my house to have a short chit chat,
and here i'm back home.
i've enjoyed my day! =D
next would be my make up pouch.
fking ********* came so early to fetch me.
not enough time to decide on my make up pouch )):
i think i'll be getting the Gucci one.
any comments?

I'm missing you. every hr, every min, every sec.
I can't wait for 21st.
God, speed up time will you?

-kailingg`-

2008-11-10T23:44:00.002+08:00

its been long.
Mr. Botak is back in tekong for 2 weeks. sad sad sad. )):
that bully.
oh well,
shopping trip tml with My Darling Ms Chocalate*HuiMin for my gucci(s) LV(s) and polo(s).
any comments n any particular model anyone?
i need key holders, card holder, wallet and some alikuku stuffs and of cause Rauph Polo. :*
=D can't wait.
heh heh.

-kailingg`-

2008-11-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

just reached home, bathed.
stupid botak bluff me he confinement.
den suddenly ask me want noe something.
then tell me he outside my shop.
very funny hur.
hahas. :l
i miss you during the week lahs.
stupid one..
btw, my xiao wu and xiao gui (the 2 baby pignose turtle) died already.
******** tried to bluff me and act funny only. zzz.
nb.
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lazy to type already. have to call botak.
byebye.

-kailingg `-

2008-10-30T11:30:00.003+08:00

just ended my mathematics paper 2.
i got 6 or more questions nv do,
either no time to do or dunno how to do.
sighs..
everybody who asked me hows my paper,
i tell them if i pass, i follow your surname.
hahas.
i guess i would have many surnames already.
heh heh.
thanks for all the morning calls on the 24th and 30th today.
yeah yeah. i know i know.
i'm a idiot when it comes to waking up in the wee morning.
which caused me to keep skip school during secondary.
but one of the morning calls very funny ok.
person A : hellooo.. wake up liaos.
me: orhs.
person A: wake up ars.
me: hmm.
then hang up phone.
-5mins later-
Ringg... (picks up phone)
me: hello..
person A: why you still sleeping? 10 o clock le lehs!
me: orh... HUH?!
then i hitted me head against my wall..
-.- very funny lehs. disturb me somemore lors.
i make sure i tml in the wee night call you ask you wake up go toilet.

p.s: my head still hurts. )):
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okok. no more weekends out, off days and free and easy.
because i'm back to work later already. )):
after this post, i will leave for BL already.

good bye! ((:

i miss Mr. Botak.
you know you know you know?
no you don't. )):

-kailingg`-

2008-10-27T20:09:00.002+08:00

hahas.
im back.
Mr. Botak booked in already.
yes yes, i highlighted my hair.
but no photos updated yet. ((:
my expenditure today : $500?
HAHAS.
As i misplaced my dior foundation powder a few days ago, went get a new one.
like shit cans.
must get the whole set again, purchase the casing, blah blah.
got the shiseido toning lotion also. :DD
and mascara, eyeliner, eye shimmer, eyeshadow from shiseido too. ((:
got another 2 dress.
its time for kailing to stop spending like tap water.
just spend $698 on hair few days ago.
but would be getting back $128. ((:
LOL.
kailing really is broke lahs.
pay faster come in!!!
wanted to get my gucci wallet,
but went over, they did not have it.
then therefore decided on red LV wallet, went there,
Out Of Stock. Nabei _l_.
now adays hur. so fking suay.

Mr. Botak is back in camp already.
sad to say, weekends pass so so so fast. )):

-kailingg`-

2008-10-24T18:38:00.010+08:00

亲爱的！六年周年记念日！我爱你！
lol. LAME SHIT. -.-ll
yes yes, i'm back from jennifer's house.
had a great talk.
i know its mushy. but,... i love you girl!
wo hao ai ni wo...... -.-lll
*managed to dig up some photos that lasted about 1 year+ in my computer.
hiak hiak.
not happy can dun see.
2006/7?

we knew each another like for fking ^&$*$ days.
i miss the times we used to
lazy tgt, sleep tgt, bath tgt, hug tgt, die tgt. love tgt, kiss tgt
(as quoted in the sms you send me) LOL.
times we used to pont sch pont lessons,
chase the teachers away, cr8 disturbance, hang around, talk about anything under the sun.
and of cause, run away from Govin. :D
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And yes yes,

i love hui min too.

-
we love being tgt like this,

we love tgt. ((:
i miss the old times. i'm serious.
*well, people do change. as we watch them change, we'll be sad and disappointed,
but there's nothing we can do to stop them. )):

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yes yes, did i mention i went over to jenn's house today after
my retaking of o lvl's maths paper 1?
ordered pizza, ate, chat and napped.
yes yes.
photos photos.
who doesn't adore being vain and camwhores?

the sleepy-head.

and yahs. sexy pose. LOL.

cabbed home after that. ((:

Going to highlight my hair tml with jennifer.
highlight fade already. time to redo. hiak hiak.
take note of my hair! would be having more photos tml.

-kailingg`-

Boy, i'm gonna see you tml already.
i miss you like crazy.

2008-10-24T13:14:00.001+08:00

i'm @ jennifer's house currently.
i'll be back later ((:

-kailingg`-

2008-10-21T01:10:00.002+08:00

update, update.
19/10/2008
taman jurong ktv with colleagues after work.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY C.K CHIN!
hoped you enjoyed yourself the day.
********* sang alot thou.
but honestly, his singing is very GOOD.
everybody was amazed. heh heh.
went home around 1.40 as i promised mr botak to return home before 2am.
i did keep to my promise ok.
)): thats the cleanest place i can ever think of les.
at least it's cleaner den si wai right?
after returning home, bathed, den called mr botak and talk till 4am. o.o
lols. very long nv like that talk le mahs.
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then, today.
went office early afternoon,
did some paper work, poor boy had to wait for me for near to 2 hrs.
im so sorry.
i have to settle some things and accounts before i go for my exam break mahs.
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im so dead tired already.
mr botak met his friend, cab me back to bl den, bye bye. )):
i can't wait to see you again.
i'll keep to my promises boy,
i'll be guai guai.
no more late nights out. no drinking, so on and so fro.

i miss you so boy.
i miss the warmth on your shoulder.
i'm missing you like crazy already.
till i cannot fall asleep.
i miss talking to you on the phone till wee night
so that i dun have to rely on pills to help me sleep.
i miss your nagging.
i miss shopping with you.
i miss movies with you.
i miss your smile.
i miss your everything.
WHY TEKONG NO RETRENCHMENT?
RETRENCH WHAT. EVERYWHERE IS RETRENCHING,
SO RETRENCH THOSE RECRUITS! )):

-kailingg`-

2008-10-19T00:20:00.005+08:00

photos photos!

<- act one cam shy only.

botak is so bad.
go boat quay with friends.
see char boh only.
that alikuku bangala.
you better go home fast, or i'll be very UNHAPPY.
humphms.
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anyway, i'm on the phone with him.
his friends dunwan let him go. how can..
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i'm missing you )):
sometimes, things do not go the way we expect it to be.
i hope i can settle my things down fast.
so that at least i can put my mind at ease.
i really hope so.
you promised to give me time, didn't you?
God Bless Me.

-kailingg`-

2008-10-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

我曾经爱过这样一个男人
他说我是世上最美的女人
我为他保留着那一份天真
关上爱别人的门
也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
我的要求并不高
待我像从前一样好
可是有一天你说了同样的话
把别人拥入怀抱
你身上有她的香水味
是我鼻子犯的罪
不该嗅到她的美
檫掉一切陪你睡
你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑
你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会

-kailingg`-

2008-10-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

i don't believe in what i hear or heard.
i believe in what i see. the fact in front of me.
i'm utterly disappointed.
maybe, i shouldn't trust so easily?
i guess so..

people i trust, one by one, all starting to show pattern.
pattern liao liao.

-kailingg`-

2008-10-15T00:41:00.005+08:00

today.
15th October.
went to find Mr. Botak, he running high fever. 39.4 degrees. )):
so brought him to NUH to see doctor, take mc.
lols.
tell you guys something incredible.
i waited 8 hours outside the visitors area for him alone.
HAHA! 8 hours hors. mai siao siao.
so camwhore-ed abit. heh heh.
sorry if i hurt your eyes

visitor's room. EMPTY one. 1 person also no have. i play hp song loud loud also no one care

As nth to do, thought of cam-whoring

time time time. faster faster.
oh yes, nice watch? :D
limited collector's yatch watch from Nautica.
i miss him. )):
hope he faster recover. 10 days of mc. woo hoo.

you make me worry like siao when you're inside the ward. Cause i received no information,
was thinking of you every sec. whether your fever ok le anot. )):

-kailingg`-

2008-10-13T01:09:00.001+08:00

talking to Mr. Botak on the phone currently.
poor fella. hes running a fever.
that Chao keng kia. :P
misses!

-kailingg`-

2008-10-11T01:56:00.002+08:00

firstly,
happy birthday low hui min ((:
hope you enjoyed just now.
((:
just reached home not ago.
Spend Hui Min's Remaining few hours of her birthday with her.
yes yes. 2 person. romantic hur.
was working, as somebody told me she was busy,
i thought she cancelled her celebration.
till she texted me.
den i was shocked as i nv take off.
den nvm, cabbed down straight to her house after she decided on where to go.
lucky i got some clothes in the wardrobes of my shop.
but still, very alikuku.
after fetch her, went down to bugis. ((:
shopping.
kailing is bankrupt now.
what i brought today: 2 top, 1 maquillage blusher from shiseido,
2 similar shade of lipsticks from clinique (1 for me and 1 for huimin)
tsk tsk,you're my beloved what.
oh, and a flats. yes, both of us brought the same flats and lipsticks today.
like the good old days. where both of us wore the simlar dressing out.
girl, no matter what you do, i'll be beside you okays.
then after that, slack awhile, dunno what to do, where to go.
then i haven had my dinner, so went to eat the tom yum steamboat :D
yummy yummy. tom yum has always been our favourite since past. ((:
yes yes, we share alot of similar taste to food.
after eating, walked back to junction, queue long, so called cab den home!!!
total spending today: $200++
donations???
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YAYNESS, Mr. Botak is booking out tml.
i miss him like hell lots man.
you dun play punk stay in hors.
bite you den you know. :P
SEE YOU TML! :DDDDD

you don't know how i feel, sorry that when the weekends you have time, i got no time due to work.
im really sorry X2286624762942 okay?
i miss you. believe it anot.
I MISS YOU LAHS.
MR. BOTAK ((:

-KAILINGG`-

2008-10-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

work work work.
today, 10th of october.
My Darling Huimin's birthday ((:
girl. you're loved okays.
MUMMY LOVE YOU!
we been through Smiles to Laughters,
Laughters to sadness, sadness to tears before.
you're my dearest.
i know you understand me the most,
and i believe i also. ((:
i'm smsing you now.
was shocked to hear the news also.
cheer up okays.
i know its hard for you esp during your birthday.
but i'm sure everything's gonna be alright.
think tml you would be cancelling the celebration. )):
but no matter what, i'll be beside you. you know i will.
and yes. i miss those times we had when there's you, me,jennifer,audrey and jaime.
the times when we went out, have girls talk and shopping.
but good things nv last.
)): thinking about it, i'm pretty upset.
never the less, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOW HUI MIN (ms chocalate)
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today, as usual, went work.
colleague brought his N96. but camera very hard to use. press till finger numb les.
lucky i nv buy. heh heh.
work work work. i got myself a very big blue black+cut on my leg. )):
im so sad.
cheer me up somebody.
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i miss Mr Botak.
Today is Friday Les. Hurray.
tml can see you liaos.
you dun crazy okays.
dun try to be funny and stay in/confinement.
if not i dunwan care you or talk to you anymore.
you're missed )):
very very missed.
im serious. i mean what i say.

Boy, im sorry X19892532590 )):
thanks for being there for me and so so so understanding.

2008-10-09T00:55:00.003+08:00

7 october,
alright.
missed me?
i'm back.
yst Day off,
so went BMC for 1 hrs class and walk out of classrooom halfway.
heh heh, the guys behind me in class are so freaking noisy.
think what. zoo ars?
JE quite far from Mandai Zoo okays.
zzz.
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so, msged xiao ting to ask her where she is,
cause morning she came my place to make up and others,
and she headed down to tanjong pagar(if i nv rmb wrongly)
girl, cheer up. ((: you're loved by me.
den i was right.
she was at suntec. so cabbed down picked her up,
headed down to bugis as ********* said
hes busy and would not be able to pick me up so soon.
dunno what meeting or what lahs.
he ask me to head to bugis for some shopping 1st.
hais.
so went bugis, headed to buy heels from charles and keith, ZAP ZAP ZAP.
den walked around, nth much to buy le lehs. cannot ZAP )):
you're lucky *********.
so went bugis street.
too bad there cannot zap des. if not i think i cfm siao.
cfm ZAP till card burst.
hahas. no lahs. i not that zek ark. i got my limits ((:
so shop shop shop.
accompanied xiao ting to find job.
yes she found one.
that girl is going crazy already.
accompany her find tops for her new job, blah blah.
den result in,
i brough 1 casual dress, 2 top,3 bottoms, 1 heel and some miscellanous stuff.
den halfway shopping, ********* called to said hes reaching in 15mins time,
so faster send xiaoting to junction den waited for him.
headed to thai village for my shark fin as usual.
im addicted to it.
then i headed home after eating while he went back to office.
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den reached home, botak says he free time les,
so called him at around 9, talk to 10.30, he lights off. )):
boy, sorry for everything, and THANK YOU! (:
rmb, you're missed by me. i hope saturday comes fast :D
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8th October,
went work as usual.
opened shop den rest for a while,talk rubbish with colleagues.
whole day did paperwork.
den cleared my table and cupboard.
did new pricing and others.
boring day )):

i'm missing you. and i know you're too ((:
IMU!

2008-10-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

shares dropping, economy falling like dunno what.
its time to save for the rainy days.
im serious.
can feel the impact on the market already.
everywhere so quiet, shopping centres and so.
businesses going downhill,
index dropping. and market shares becoming a waste paper.
that's life.
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had a long day of work today.
arranging things, typing new price lists and some nonsense.
thats why some friends find it strange to see my msn keep appearing as online.
yes. i was on the pc the whole day at work.
but was busy thats why i reply slow. sorry people!
oh yes, did i tell you people.
DBS/POSB rejected my request to adjust my daily limit.
like some kuku idiot lahs.
knn.
they were like, 'oh, you have to fill in this form and sign, its subjected to approval'
next week i went, they said 'oh, the highest we can give you is 5k only'
Fk up.
see small kids no money. must be.
then like that say i every 3 days must go queue up to deposit,
withdraw and transfer money??!!
no logic.
if not its more convenient for me with posb, i think i take ocbc les.
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i guess Mr. Blacky botak is fast asleep already.
just now talk to him for a while, den he lights out les.
time seems so fast, but every week seems so slow.
he he. dun think of awol okays.
you can pass thru des. no worries. ((:
i'll miss you.
oh yes. went to watch the painted skin with
Mr. Blacky Botak on saturday.
caught the 11.15pm show. heh heh.
after the show end. went to slack around and
talk till around 2.40am den headed back home.
nice show. but he says not nice.
i know lahs. you want watch 'mirrors' right?
i dun wan. =P
siao ta bor.
heh heh.
you're missed x 908654648 by me. ((:

-kailingg`-

2008-10-04T00:44:00.002+08:00

she msged my another colleague around 5am yst saying she's sorry.
so colleague came to tell me.
well, im not someone that hateful.
i forgive and forget easily.
i hope you realise your mistake.
no more 2nd time please.
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and yes yes!
please support:
http://beautyprinxcess.livejournal.com/
mummy polly's blogshop ((:
imu )):
do meet up soon beloved!
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yayness.
mr botak booking out tml les.
im missing him like nobody's business.
shall be catching the painted skin tml with him ((:
lalala.

男人男人,
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

2008-10-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

Had a conflict with one of my colleague just now.
knn.
so pekchek i was today already.
so i told her if she not happy, den tml dunnid come les.
so she packed up all her stuffs and left.
fk up.
*the last time you could ever do is to push blames to your boss/management.
its not like i cannot hire someone else.
ask yourself before you talk to me,
how much sales can you make a month?
if i can train you to be a top sales, i can train others too.
if i can make you a top sales today, i can make another one out another day.
you can forget about furniture line thou, you're blacklisted starting from today ((:
dun try to fool with me,
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got mummy a new phone ((:
give 'jia yong' to mummy today also.
i'm broke, i think she's the richest in the family liaos can.
donations anyone?
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i'm missing you.
i'm missing you.
i'm missing you.
i'm missing you.
i'm missing you.
how how how?
Here am i wondering how you're doing inside.
Mr Botak brought alot of batteries inside for the portable charger i got for him. :D
thanks for everything boy,
sorry that i couldn't spend much time with you when you're out.
sorry that i couldn't spend much time with you when you are having your free time inside.
but believe it anot, i miss you )):
thanks for being understanding ((:

2008-10-01T00:46:00.002+08:00

met mr botak in the afternoon,
watched connected at jp. not bad ((:
had a long long day.
just came home 30mins ago from macs.
and i enjoyed myself.
thank you mr botak! ((:
i'm gonna miss you when you book in )):

-kailingg`-

2008-09-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

Yayness.
Mr Botak booked out today.
met him after work.
become mr blacky botak les.
heh heh.
sales today was so so..
hope tml would be better ((:
passed him his present.
hope he likes it.
you're missed!
im having a call with him now.
chatting on the phone like we haven done so for so long already.
i'm sorry, im sorry, im sorry.
anyway, bad news, my lil baby turtle passed away.
very very very tired day.
my eyes are closing,
people are rushing me off to sleep. yes mr botak!
goodnight!

someone please lend me a shoulder to lean on, cry on. anyone?
i think its been long since i ever had a shoulder to lean on )):

2008-09-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

i'm missing you )):
1.5 more days Mr Botak would be out.
but he'll become Mr Blacky Botak.
hahas.
its not about the decision, but the correct timing boy.
anyway, im missing you!
kailing is awful tired after 2 continuous days of carrying sofas,
dinning tables, coffee tables up and down, to and fro.
she needs a rest.
maybe going late to work tml.
just got the company contractor to do a lock for me at the office.
yay yay!
funny thing is, i requested to do the lock on the microwave.
in that case, you can see money, but cannot take. hiak hiak!
hahas. but impossible lahs.
so he did it for me on drawers instead. )):
just received a call from mr blacky botak not long ago.
he say he enjoy life in tekong. lmao.
then tell him the lil bad news that i accidently dropped
his beloved phone and causing a slight scratch at the side.
very very sorry! )):
i got something for you anyway on saturday,
i promised you i'll accompany you on saturday after work,
i will. no worries ((:
im missing you X8786764154

2008-09-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

hello.
just ended work, bathed and did some of the paper work which i couldn't finish in the office. )):
some letters documents and etc.
quite stress with life recently.
about work, money and some other things. )):
anyway,
please allow me to torture your eyes.

yours truly. quite moody @ morning thou )):

Some of you may find him familiar.
Seen him grow from a toddler to a lil boy.
He never fails to bring laughters
and smiles to my face with all his notorious nonsenses and actions.
from the 'jie jie wo yao chi macdonald' to songs he sing and dances he entertains you with.
and all the anger and madness you would receive from him such as
playing with my shop's switches,
stealing my teddy bears and running out,
tiko-pehing,
dirtying of my furnitures with the ice cream we TREAT him with on PURPOSE.
beating and injuring our customers at times. zzz.
* i remember once, bringing him to our tampines branch and he ended up getting whack by ********* for running about and messing up the place and ended up crying.

But of cause, he receives treats and shower of dotes when he behaves
he help us serve the customers with drinks and entertaining them with funny actions,
distribute fliers to ask them to take a look.
my sweetie, cutie pie. Ah Bao ((:
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you guys must be wondering why i took so many photos with cutie pie today.
but cute lahs. here's what happened.
him: 姐姐﹐你的 handphone 有沒有 camera﹖
me: 有啊﹐ 做什麼呢﹖
him: 我要和你拍照可以嗎﹖
me: 哈哈﹗
him: 可以啦﹗我懂你很疼我的.
lols. so photo till he happy lors. ((:
that crazy fella.
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im missing you. 7 more days till you're out of that island.
i miss Mr botak )):
your smses keeps me going f0r the day. really. ((:
althou i have a tired day.
and i know you also have a tired day after the long hours of road march.

-Kailingg`-

2008-09-19T00:36:00.004+08:00

before i'm off to work..
it's been uber long since i received morning calls from Mr Botak.
hahas. was shock upon receiving it thou.
he seems so free inside.
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These few days quite boring.
i miss my VAIO )):

i keep nagging everyday i reach home.
but mummy keep ask me look at the bright side,
now im back unite with my long abandoned acer and lenovo laptops.
its different!!
imagine the other 2 laptops ar 3 times my vaio weight.
it doesn't allow me to carry conveniently around.
i rather use my desktop -.-
big big screen somemore. LOL.
kinda not used to big screens. my vaio is only 11.5inches while this is 16inches.
i hope IMM servicing hurry up call me and inform me my vaio is ok for collection!!
conclusion: i miss vaio )':

2008-09-19T00:36:00.003+08:00

really stressed up these few days.
this morning tried to play MIA, but failed. )):
i really hope my presence won't affect your decision.
but somehow, i did feel i affected it. -.-
you asked me to respect your decision,
i did so, but i felt kinda bad.
but i knew even i mia also no use des.
so i stopped avoiding it.
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i'm sorry if my MIA has affected your mood for the day,
caused you to skip your breakfast and the side effects.
i swear it wasn't on purpose.
just thought my absence would make the matter better for you.
im sorry x10000
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i woke up soon, then received your calls and msgs.
then i realised my mia did not work. )):
what you told me in the msg really touched me. i swear it did boy.
not long after, pulled myself out of bed and tidy up, bath,
to bank for dropping of cheques for the company,
then deposit and transfer $$.
then kfc takeaway, then back to office.
tired like siao.
had a really tired day.
tommorow, another day.

thanks for giving me time.
Somehow, i still hope my presence did not affect your decision,
how i wish i can disappear. i really do.
sorry for everything boy.
8 days and counting down.
i miss Mr Botak )):

2008-09-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

sushi with darling huimin at ichiban(JP)

you're my darling daughter always. 5 years and counting on. ((:

you know, i'll always be there for you, no matter what,
and i know you will be there too. ((:
thanks girl <3
ilu ((:
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ok. time to save $. heh heh.
i'm telling that to myself for the number ^$%#$ times.
God Bless.
just ended call with mr botak )):

i don't wish you to hurt anyone. Neither would i want you to waste your time on me. )):