hadn't been posting for long.
hahas.
had a lil tiff with baby yst.
one, changes for the better
one, changes for the worst.
i'm kinda confused.
well, but i guess we are okay already.
i know baby,
sometimes i am a bit too harsh with my words and i don't give in to any quarrels.
i know, i know.
i know you've been giving in to me all along to the 1 year+.
i know you've changed from your past.
i know you love me.
i know to you, im everything.
i know, you are trying your best to give me everything i want.
i know, i know, i know.
i know i've been very attitude.
i know i've been very self-centered all along.
i know i've been very petty all along.
i know i'm harsh with my words.
i know i love you too.
i know at times, i made you very lost.
i'm lost too.
How i want us to be able to get together fast.
but why isn't things happening the way i want it to be.
why can't he let go.
is it retribution?
why, i don't know.
sometimes not i want throw temper or what.
just that i know you've waited so long for me.
but i never suceeded persuading him.
i feel bad, guilty and sorry.
you know my feeling?
i know you've all along been reading my entries.
well, its meant for you to read, seriously,
sometimes i just don't know how to express my emotions.
so i lost my control, but i didn't meant to. sorry baby if i hurt you at times.
i know i did. many times indeed. but i didn't meant to, in fact, i feel remorse after everytime.
but i just cannot control myself.
too many emotions. all mixed up.
i know i love you.
but im just mad at myself.
why can't i be more strong and say it to him. why can't i be more straightfoward.
i know after my this post, people would start thinking negatively about me.
but i just wanna tell you, i dun care how people look at me.
just like you always say, you rather carry the load yourself.
but do you know, i always cry myself to sleep.
i asked time to stop for me,
but it would not.
i know you love me truly.
but i swear my love for you ain't any lesser.
but for the sacrifices you made for me,
i guess i won't be able to return you.
thus, i will learn to care more for you ((:
loves loves!
-kailingg`-
baby, i love you wholeheartedly. because you bring me my sunshine everyday from morning to night. never fail to give in to me and allowing me to be the most fortunate person i could be. AND I LOVE YOU. <3
